August 30, 2002 - 10:01 AM
So to begin with, is there anything that you would like to confess to in order to
just get things off your chess or free up your soul?
No. There's too much pain involved.
Well now, with that out of the way, we can get on to more specific questions. For example, have you in our lifetime commit an act that would be considered against federal, state, or local law? If so, what was it? If there are multiple ones, what is the most severe? Please keep in mind the idea of the statutes of limitation and your relative ability to go to jail of the said act.
Eh... I used to be in a gang during my misguided youth that occasionally sold drugs and bashed Asians. I never lifted a finger mind you (except in defence, and then it was against someone who was in the gang), nor did I trade, but I was a party to it. I also slashed tires on occasion. I'm surprised I managed to bypass a lot of shit that happened. Then again, sometimes I wonder if I really did escape or if retribution has found it's own way to me through various other happenings. This was all ten years ago. After my Experience™, I got very quite and decided to be a good girl.
Have you in life committed an act of betrayal against a friend or family member? If so, what was it?
Does telling on my sister count? I can't say that I've ever betrayed my family. I've been betrayed though. Quite thoroughly.
Have you ever committed an act that in some way or another, left you feeling, "dirty" or "bad" voluntarily, that you will probably do again in the future in spite of those bad feelings?
Yes, but I doubt the situation will ever come up again. So I'll leave it at that.
Have you ever found yourself sexually turned-on by someone that you absolutely should not have been at that time? If so, what did you do about it?
Oh hell yes. Though he was too old for me and showed little to no interest in me at all. He was bad news. Bad, bad news, and I thank whatever stars looking out for me at the time that I didn't act upon the feeling anyway.
Have you ever fantasized or had "impure" or sexual thoughts about someone amongst your current group of friends an associates that they do not know about? If so, what thoughts, who, and what are there relationship to you?
*laughs* Oh shit... All the fucking time. But it's never acted upon. One of SK's friends in particular... though he's way too... lithe for my liking. He does have a very pretty face though. I'd love to take pictures of him. He's lovely though... he takes the time to actually listen rather than talk over people like SK sometimes does. It amused me once that, whilst we were having dinner together, SK cut me off or talking over me (one of the two) and the guy smiled and then said "So Ren, you were saying what about....?" I could have fucked him right there on the table amongst the sweet and sour pork and udon noodles.
Out curiosity, if everyone around you knew everything that you have ever done or wanted to do, would they probably consider you a good person or a bad person? Do you feel that you are a good or bad person?
I'd be a bad person to some.
Did you answer all questions with full disclosure any honesty? If so, which questions did you give "blurry" answers to?
Of course. Some things are just too personal. Usually the shit I give "blurry" answers to is in relation to stuff that while it might be okay to reveal here, it hurts too much to actually think about, let alone draw it all to the fore of ones mind and write about it.
